I'm into old school and new school underground, Dark Electronic, music and some Symphonic Black Metal from all around the world. I hate most all mainstream metal and NU Metal and I am very opinionated about a lot of shit.
Anyway, I'm a musician and visual artist looking to meet some real hardcore Goth types(The kind that go to Psyclon Nine and Suicide Commando Concerts). I've been playing keyboard since I was 16, I write and mix Electronic, EBM and Industrial music. My songs that I wrote are featured in the player above, check them out if you are not a snob and are actually cool. I can also play Symphonic Black Metal, Psychedelic Rock, Jazz, Blues and Piano stuff.
I am also a vocalist, mainly specializing in low European type vocals and Death Metal(High pitch screams and my low growls are pretty good as well). Basically anything ugly and crazy I can pull off quite well.
Music is my passion, therapy, way of life, reason for existing, escape and ultimate drug.
I'm in a one man Industrial band that I created, including the band name in 1997 called "Gears Of Destruction" aka G.O.D. It's mainly an experimental band that leans towards pushing the envelope, waking up the masses of brainwashed cattle and also focuses on my everyday life, feelings, political views and psychedelic drugs. Most of my songs are instrumental and don't really have a direct message. They just exist because I enjoy making weird music.
"We Are all Gears In the Machine, The Gears of our own Destruction. In our pursuit to become G.O.D.s or have GOD like status and control"
That is the basic idea behind my band name and it has nothing to do with "Gears of War" or any of these online video game sites that started using that name for their online teams. Nor, does it have anything to do with me thinking I'm god or my music is god. So don't get the wrong idea, I'm not that cocky.
A lot of my songs are just experimental hobbies, influenced by the music I grew up listening to. Along with my own exploration and fascination of noise, natural rhythms of mechanized devices, sound manipulation and melody. My newest album has vocals and is by far my best work, that is playable in clubs(In the player above, check it out!!). There is a lot of sound engineering and re-mastering, even re-writing and re-mixing along with a head ache I will have to go through to makes these songs really hit. Considering the low quality gear I used to create my music I must say it is quite good and if I had a studio, band members, producer, funding, I would probably create a monster.
I create what I create with out the help of others and I still plan on playing live gigs, despite so many set backs my new album is near completion.... Re-mastered in studio condition or made on cheap head phones I will start playing shows, against an almost completely dead scene here in Lawrence Kansas.
Other than that, I plan on getting back into visual arts. Pen and ink, pastels, cray-pas, pencil, colored pencil, markers, Black light and just about any other medium including computer graphics and 3d modeling.
I have been able to draw in perspective and create stereoscopic images("Magic Eye" stereo-grams) since I was in 6th grade. I also have created lots of computer art and had a bunch of CG animations and even some anaglith ones I created, but then my hard drive burned out and I lost a lot of stuff I made including older albums. I'm trying to create some computer stuff for a music video, but my current computer is slow as hell yet I am some how able to play live music through it with low latency, anyways.
I am also a lyricist, poet and philosopher who seeks truth and I hate materialism, shallow people, corporate radio and most everything about society. Especially the emphasis on money and the way it dehumanizes us, it has us all and there is no escape. We enslave ourselves and destroy our future for it!! A life of poverty is a very lonely one, I do not think it is right to judge some one based upon income and their financial hierarchy in society. In a world where it doesn't matter who you have to hurt or step on to make your way to the top. Most of all I find it extremely lame that I can't find a girlfriend because I'm poor. So even though I'm a good person and I write kick ass music, they'd rather be with some asshole who treats them like shit but can support them financially. Well, I will never be that and fuck you!! That's right, I'm not going to be what you want me to be.
Well anyway, I love nature, animals, family, friends, art, artist, musicians, Horror and Sci-fi movies, anime, graphic novels, women(who are not stuck up) and idealist, individuals who are willing to die to preserve the Idealism of freedom.
I hope to someday find that false dream no one wants to believe in called love. With out a million dollars and a college degree. I guess I better wait for hell to freeze over. Lol
I'm a very passionate and romantic person when given the chance.
Another interesting thing about me, I was born on December 21, 1981. The shortest day of the year, the winter solstice and also supposedly the day of the Apocalypse in 2012. According to some I could be the Anti-Christ(If only I was that lucky, I'm way to fucking nice though and no one follows my ideas).
My parents were married on Friday the 13th.
I used to live in apartment #1313, 666 is a common number that appears in my life. Also, on the supposed day of the Apocalypse, I will turn 31. That's 13 backwards and I am in no way superstitious. In fact I don't think anything out of the ordinary is going to happen on 12/21/2012.
There have been scary stories about the end of the world since the dawn of man. Fear is one of the most powerful tools used to control and manipulate the masses. I will say, in the back of my mind I kinda wish the world would end. Because we destroy everything in our path and most all of the human race completely disgust me!!!! Especially all this shitty fucking pop music I hear coming out of everyone's cars when they drive by supporting the war for gasoline, the dwindling of our natural resources and the destruction of this planet!!! I can go on and on, but I'll stop.
I believe in reincarnation, and telekinesis. I've dreamed of past lives, predicted the future, had telepathic conversations and have seen ghost and UFO's on more than one account. Also, I am not in anyway delusional or crazy. My mom has psychic abilities too. More so then myself, for I've been out of touch with that for a few years now, but every once in a while weird things that can't be explained with logic happen to me.
I lived in a haunted house not to long ago and hope to live in one again.
I am very fascinated in the paranormal, and dreams. Yet am still a person of science, believing in evolution and I have a huge fascination in Quantum Mechanics.
I do not like established religions at all. Too many people have been manipulated, tortured and killed in the name of God.
I have my own religion, similar to transcendence entirely based on my acid and mushroom trips, life experiences and dreams.
I am very glad to have experienced these things that most people would shut out of their minds, it's the main inspiration for my creations.
Don't be afraid to send me a message or friend request, even if your into trendy shit(this site needs less mainstream metal fans and more underground Black metal and Dark electronic people). More than anything, I just want people to check out my music and If you want to get away from the mainstream, I have such sites to show you. I want to meet people who think I'm to mainstream and not hardcore enough
For some dumb reason The player above skips every other video and you just have to deal with it. I used to have over twice the amount of videos, but Youtube and the W.M.G.(Those pieces of shit) Keep banning and blocking all the good videos!! Land of the free my ass!!