huh... i'm quiet and something of an introvert. i prefer smaller crowds and simple pleasures such as sleeping in on weekends and a nice steak for dinner XD

i grew up on 80's rock and that's why i prefer rock over other genres...

i like to dress nice and like when my man does the same... have pride in your appearance!
i rarely wear tee shirts... so i dont tend to like people who will look like a bum all the time... makes me feel over dressed just to walk around the house lol

i love to draw and write and i love white wine and tequila and goldslauger _<

i'm not afraid of my sexuality and i'm quite open about it. if asked, i will speak freely on the matter. otherwise, i enjoy a good dirty joke every now and then and i find "fun" to be a matter of what you're comfortable with... i can keep things as simple or make them as kinky as can be agreed on...
that aside, i am much the die-hard romantic, raised on old european courtship traditions such as dinner and flowers topped off with a movie and cuddling by the fire. sex, though great as it may be, is not everything. if you can appreciate someone without banging them, i believe the relationship would have far more meaning to it... love with your heart not with what you have between your legs!

i require time, not money... dont spend your money on me...take time to do something simple for me instead...i'll appreciate it more...

honesty, loyalty, responsibility, integrity and being true to oneself as well as manners....those are my only standards when it comes down to it. that's all i really look for. now, if you expect me to say looks don't matter, you're asking me to be better than human and unfortunately, i am human. i make mistakes and in some way, shape, or form, looks will play some part. anyone who says otherwise has no standards or is a complete lier... i refuse to be either of those types of people. perhaps i expect too much, perhaps, i'm far too selective. all i know is that i refuse to settle for less and i would hope others are the same. so if there's a spark, then great. if not, oh well...next! (i'm not going to cry about it... life's too short to mope around)

if you're one of the few lucky people to catch my interst i wont string you along. not my style... and i will tell it like it is...none of this beating around the bush crap...but again, i require time. patience is the key when dealing with the heart. i can't say if anything will last or not if i only hang out with you once or twice. i barely know you and would think it wrong of me to assume off that miniscule amount of information. i want to know you before i make my final decision. tell me i'm slow but, i'd rather be 100% sure than make the biggest mistake of my life....

uh.....update when i think of more then >_

i am happily in a great relationship. so i'm not looking for anythig more than a friend to talk to occasionally... my man is my life and i don;t need nor do i want anything more. hence why i don't get on here often enough to keep up with updating and all that other crap..... so we;ll see what happens next time i log back in, eh? =p

~Insanity~

I wonder what my world looks like on the outside.
Out where there is sunshine.
Where demons cannot hide.

I used to ponder things like these

I forget what life is like outside a cage.
Won't you tell me please?

I spend most of my time gnawing at my restraints.
They cut into my flesh.

Beyond that I've no complaints.

I used to speak, and state my case.
Before i bit off my tongue.
When they brought me to this place.

I wonder what they'll bring me to eat tonight.
The pills they give me, they think they can make the world alright.

They want to help me.

Fuck them, i like to fight.

I can picture no escape from this place where i dwell.
Death the only release from my never ending Hell.

I think it's almost time to close my eyes.

Never again to see the sun.

Please remember to turn out the lights when you're done.

~Billy, 2009